Folks, it’s been quite some time since I sat in front of my laptop and typed in a few lines....actually 4 months now since I last blogged...and I still remember leaving blogging at the crucial time when my internet traffic was at its all time peak....
BUT...here I am once again, reborn and real...matured and grown up...with an all new perspective but the same old passion for the freedom of expression...Here is the other half of my story....the story of rebirth and return to the world of blogging....
Last 4 months have been one hell of a ride...an entire ocean away from home...caught here in the middle of a concrete jungle surrounded by vast deserts and unending waters....here I stand in the middle of the world fastest growing city......Dubai
Well...No, don’t jump to any conclusion too soon.....I didn’t get recruited by any underworld agency...hahaha (lolz that sounded ‘sensitively’ funny!) nor did I run away from troubled motherland to the lure of foreign treasures.....
Actually the fact is......finally my homies decided enough was enough, frustrated with me sitting idle at home they sent some applications to the colleges far away from home......and some college accepted to take me in and the college happens to be far away from home in the cosmopolitan Dubai...
It has been a roller coaster ride ever since...Beginning on 26th august when I left home in the middle of a war like situation..(actually on the verge of a civil war)....still remember being escorted to the airport in the middle of the most strict curfew imaginable by one police (state police) vehicle at the front and one at the back...plus some state police officials in the car, just in case the Indian army and the paramilitary forces didn’t approve of our curfew pass and decided otherwise...! (trust me friends, thanks to some state police officials or I would have been as unfortunate as that unborn child which died in the womb of her mother only because he couldn’t reach hospital that very day...!!!)
I remember my last blog was titled “
Kashmir on the verge of peoples revolution” and it got a pretty decent response from people all over...but unfortunately I was never able to blog the other half of the story...the other half after the hope of that ‘Historic Eidgah’...the other miserable half which spoke of brutal suppression and aggression which followed the very few days of people power....a suppression which shut away the last ray of light which had managed to come into the dark valley in two decades...
Well by now all of us know the other half of the story.....The uprising was crushed and the revolution remained a dreamer’s fantasy...
I don’t wanna discuss it any longer because it hurts to remind myself of the same old story......story of how the people got together and decided to bring about the change and how the changer never came...how the people got crushed whenever they tried to stand up and fight...it hurts to make myself go through the same shit again and again...so I better leave this time the discussions for the various biased political parties who fight for the greed and power...and the lure of rulling the earthly heaven...!!!
Trust me, the people are again left alone in the middle of nowhere with no one to turn to...well not in the middle of nowhere, but lemme better say in the middle of their own land...a cursed land which people over time have learned to call...”NO MAN’S LAND”...(actually, that land is not any no man’s land...it’s my land...my people’s land...)
Well.....as promised already...I have decided not to discuss the same political shit time and again when I know it won’t make any difference on this earth...when we got such great leaders and politicians and when I know any revolution can be suppressed by an armed forced suppression and agression....
Come on...be realistic,
this ain’t any Gandhi’s world where people will continue facing the aggression and suppression with no force but a non-violent will to suffer eternally until the oppressor decides mercy...!!!No this really aint any Gandhi’s world......so I better shut up and let the “big dogs” do the barking....!!! (bow bow bow...........let them talk...!!!..I must confess I can’t hide my frustration and anger at the some tall figures who move around dressed as hypothetical messiahs..!!!)
Hmmm....so let me stop the same old depressing shit and move onto the other half of the story....No, not the miserable half of my land’s story but the other half of MY OWN STORY.........
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Imagine standing on top of the world and shouting out loud so that the whole world could hear you...expressing what you feel and what you believe...your opinions, your views, your likes and dislikes...discussing your personal issues...shouting out loud and the whole world listening to what you think and reading what you write...
Imagine the entire humanity filling your pockets with all the money in this world; thanking you for the mere effort of expressing yourself....”
”Imagine a world where you get paid for expressing yourself...”
WELCOME TO THE WORLD OF BLOGGING...!These were the few lines which I spoke at the beginning of my oral presentation in college....Yes, folks that’s what woke me up from my deep slumber of four months and motivated me once again to start blogging....
Remember how confusing my last blog sounded..??? “
The Rebirth..And he was born again..” (hope some of you have read it...and got confused...and maybe then swore not to read any text from this messed up blog from some psycho blogger...!)
(I even got some comments on that blog, stating it the most confusing piece of aimless writing!)
I totally agree with the comments...
So well moving on to clear the confusion...here I go on to narrate the second half of my confused story in a rather much less confusing way....
Totally confused, I woke up at 7.42 am on the early Tuesday morning...
I had totally forgotten that it was my assignment day and I was supposed to be all prepared by 6 am....the day I was supposed to stand up in front of the whole class, properly dressed and give a proper ‘corporate like’ presentation on any topic of my choice...and the topic I had chosen.........
well it won’t take any genius to figure out.....“Internet Blogging”...!
Just try to imagine what I must be going through when a friend called me up at 7.42 am...and woke me up from my sleep shouting and cursing that I was up next for presentation in 5 minutes...!!!
What a way to wake up
......”as if the guy on the phone had just said, sorry to say dear but you are screwed...royally screwed..!”I woke up in my hostel room...totally shivering and trembling...just to confirm peeping out from the window, I could see “The Burj Dubai” standing tall.....Now, for sure this wasn’t just any bad dream but an unseen reality.....
Chaos and panic ran wild in my mind which went nuts and couldn’t realise what the hell had it just heard....Instinctively the first thing struck my mind was to rush to college which thank god was just 5 minutes walk away from hostel.....but then the second thought which reminded me that it was supposed to be a formal presentation given in the most corporate and professional style...thus I turned to the mirror and in no way I could have went through with this in such a terrible looking miserable unshaven face..........!
Adrenaline pumping...I took the trimmer, trimmed myself !
put some toothpaste in my mouth and never brushed!
Jumped into the shower and came out clean in record time of 2 minutes...smashed my wardrobe searching for friends formal shirt...took out the brown coloured (actually rust) shirt, then the formal trousers, the shoe....I knew I was missing something, but didn’t know what it was....I had already taken the USB Pen Drive which contained my all important slide show on the topic...
Oh yes, of course just to mention how disastrous it was...My speech was missing and my script was lost...so basically it was...
"dressing up for a suicide mission..!!!!”Ran to the college and in the half way another guy who was running with me for the same cause, asked me....Where was my tie..!!!!
Ahh...I can’t describe that feeling when you are racing like an Olympic sprinter, leading the track and in the midway someone tells you that you forgot to start from the starting point and you need to start again..!So I had to go back run to my room..(which thank God happens to be in the ground floor) and put on my friends slim black tie and run back again to my class.....
(hey...I never wanted to lose any marks on looks..!!!)I knew I was already terribly late...breathless, I entered the class, I knew I was on next...unprepared and unrehearsed...
I walked to the front of the class...inserted my USB into the computer and switched on the projector....
Breathless....but an adrenaline rush which gave me no time to realise that I was standing alone here in front of almost 67 students with no speech and no preparation...and no time to realise that it is going to be total embarrassment and insult on my reputation........
But then...”there was a divine intervention” (as always.....!!!!!!!!!!)
I started with the few lines which I have already written at the beginning of this blog...and then I don’t know from where the hell the words came or from where the hell the confidence came....but I went on and on and on for next 6minutes and 11 seconds crossing the time limit of 5 minutes....shouting out loudly and interestingly about the topic...’blogging’...the best thing was the attention and response from crowd which laughed when I tried to make them laugh and which listened so curiously when I told them about the secrets of blogging for money and Google Adsense....I still don’t know what it actually was...an extempo or an advertisement of my blog.....!
The whole time consciously or unconsciously, I kept mentioning time and again about my blog...my very own blog!!!...and now when I look back at it...it feels embarrassing to be boasting about your small, little, tiny unimportant blog....hehehhe
But at the same time it gives me enough pleasure and satisfaction the fact that being unprepared and still able to speak some interesting shit....!!!
And then, I concluded with the following lines
“We all deserve to be heard and discussed...what we need to do is go home, open a blog host and type in our very own blog site...so that one day we can proudly say that, I was a part of the revolution...the most powerful and the most unique revolution which made me millions in dollars and billions in people support...a revolution which allowed me to take the charge and lead the discussions through continuous online postings and top the money list through regular cheques...a blogging revolution”
“Start expressing.....Start blogging.....Start earning....”
And yet somehow at the end, I don’t know how and why...after my conclusion at the very end while mentioning my resource and reference, the websites from where I got the content for my slide show.......
Unconsciously.... I mentioned at the very last....”friends you will very soon find a blog about this very presentation on my blog....that is... 2virginz.blogspot.com.....The Saints Are Coming.......”
THANK YOU
Whoa...!!! the response I got.....wow, can’t still believe...such a loud cheer and applause....some 'Hi fives' as I walked towards mam...our instructor and evaluator......and she said, “very confident, very interesting....very very good...excellent....you just lost two marks for putting in a lot of content in too little time...you rushed a little...otherwise excellent....”
Then as I moved towards my favourite last seat (lately a back bencher!)...the whole group of buddies congratulated me and some even called it the best presentation from our class and some were curious to know how to start blogging or how to make money.........
ahh...and it was such a satisfying feeling when a class mate said I looked good in the formals........!!!!
(I even got the slide show and the video of the presentation which I will be uploading as soon as my hostel internet speeds up...!!!)
Folks...No don’t get furious...I know I can get very irritating at times.....but seriously trust me...I am not trying to glorify myself, rather trying to tell you the second half of my true story...which made me realise that I am a blogger....
Happy and satisfied as I went back to the hostel in the evening....
Something from my presentation struck my mind.......... “friends you will very soon find a blog about this very presentation on my blog....that is... 2virginz.blogspot.com.....The Saints Are Coming.......”
And as promised.....here I am writing this blog
"Unconsciously my mind had spoken what my heart wanted to say since a long time.....A return to the world of blogging......!"
4 long months of separation but the desire is still there...........The fire still burns...!
As I have already said in my presentation....“It’s about the pure joy of freedom of expression”
And I knew now, this was my soul calling me to return to the world where I could express myself....a return to the magical world of internet blogging...............AND HE WAS BORN AGAIN....!!!
(Since my college doesn’t approve of blogging on controversial and political issues, I have decided to restrain from writing about any such topic....Moreover, since I am already over burdened with the hectic schedule of regular tests and assignments, I hardly find time to blog with the same dedication as I used to before...Sorry for the inconvenience caused...(if at all caused...!!!)
But trust me folks the desire to speak up and speak out is still there...the freedom of expression is still free...!!!!)